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The Words I Never Said
You hear the songs
I never sang
You see the looks
I never gave
You see the tears
I never cried
And yet you love me anyway.
You feel the pain
I never showed
You study books
I never read
You want the man
I never was
And to hear the words I never said...
The Late Great Me
Leave my body far below
a bloody broken cell of flesh.
A silent spectre in the shadows
I watch the lives of those I left.
Going about their daily lives
never giving me a glance
I reach into their deepest dreams
just to find a black expanse.
No fond memories of my life
only then disguised contempt.
Face me smiling, stab my back
My eyes go shut, my strength goes limp.
I thought I had so many friends
I told them all how great I was
The life so many others envied
Full of people, lacking love.
All through life I loved to think that
I'm the one they want to be.
But now in death I see so clearly
that no one mourns the Late Great Me...
Playland of Forgotten Dreams 2
I sit in the box in the attic
silently humming songs I forgot
long ago, but remembered today for some odd reason.
The sound of footsteps echo up the stairs.
I used to thrill at that sound,
hoping it was you coming to take me
away from this menial existence
(I dont dare call it life).
But it never was....
just mom getting her wedding album
or dad putting away a rusty saw...
But today feels different for some reason
and I feel my imaginary heart begins to
beat faster in my weathered, furry shell.
I find myself straining dust covered ears
hoping for a familiar sound...
the way you drap your foot every fourth step
the way you hum when you walk
the way you laugh when you hug your mom....
The steps continue closer and closer
but I hear none of these sounds I long for.
I settle back inside my box and resign myself
for another "almost visit"
like so many we have never had before.
I fight the urge to cover my eyes
(first rule of being a teddy bear
never move around
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